Kehne ko kuch khaas nahi...

Kehne ko kuch khaas nahi...
Ab ehsaaso ko alfaas nahi...
Jab kehte the tab andekha kiye wo...
Ab kehte hai hamme saans nahi...

Chalte hain bas chalte rehene ko!
Kaante sehte hain bas sehene ko!
Aankho me jo ubar aaye hai un ashqo ko rehne do...
Zurrat jo ki thi uski saza ab amal hone do...

Bas ab saath hai koi parchai,
Apni si lagti ab ye Tanhai...
Ranjiso se ab kaise ruswai,
Ab kehne ko kuch Khaas nahi...

Haal-e-dil

Ruswaiyaa tanhaiyaa ab saath hai...
aur kisise ab koi baat nahi...!
Wo shaqs jisse milne k khwaab bahut sajaye the.
ab usse kabhi mulaqat nahi...
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akele he ab din guzaar lete hai...
Viraane me he ab gulshan saja lete hai...
Bahut guzaarish kar li ghairo se...
ab khud he dil ko behla lete hai...
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Hamdardo se kya gila kare...
Hamkadam he ab saath nahi...
kal jisne kaha tha kabhi nahi chodhenge,
aaj us haath me mera haath nahi...
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Bahut hame dildaar mile...
Maashuko k ambaar mile...
Dil lagane ki us pal se zurrat nahi ki,
Jab se dil ko wo ashq hazar mile...
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Kuch ishq kiya, kuch kaam kiya...

Wo log bohot khush qismat the,
Jo ishq ko kaam samajhte the.
Ya kaam se aashiqi karte the,
Hum jeete jee masroof rahe!

Kuch ishq kiya, kuch kaam kiya...
Kaam ishq ke aade aata raha,
Aur ishq kaam se ulajhta raha!

Phir aakhir tang aa kar ham ne
Dono ko adoora chodh diya!!!
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kab yaad main tera saath nahin,kab haath main tera haath nahin!
sad-shukar keh apni raton main, ab hijr ki koi raat nahin!

gar bazi ishq ki bazi hai,jo chaho laga do dar kesa!
gar jeet gaye to kya kehne,hare bhi to bazi maat nahin!
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- Faiz Ahmed Faiz

My favourite Poems

If thou must love me, let it be for nought
Except for love's sake only. Do not say
"I love her for her smile--her look--her way
Of speaking gently,--for a trick of thought
That falls in well with mine, and certes brought
A sense of pleasant ease on such a day" -
For these things in themselves, Beloved, may
Be changed, or change for thee,--and love, so wrought,
May be unwrought so. Neither love me for
Thine own dear pity's wiping my cheeks dry, -
A creature might forget to weep, who bore
Thy comfort long, and lose thy love thereby!
But love me for love's sake, that evermore
Thou may'st love on, through love's eternity.

- Elizabeth Browning

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I carry your heart with me...
I carry it in my heart!
I am never without it, anywhere
I go you go, my dear;
And whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling...
I fear no fate, for you are my fate, my sweet...
I want no world, for beautiful you are my world,my true
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you!

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows...
Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life
Which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide...
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart...

I carry your heart... I carry it in my heart!

-Edward Estlin Cummings

Grateful Daugther

I may have made you feel that I dint see or that I dint hear the Life lessons that you taught me... But I got every word!

Perhaps you thought I missed it all.. But I picked everything! It's written on my heart!

Without you Paa, I wouldn't be the person I'm today. You built a strong foundation and an even better concrete and no one can take that away...

I've grown up with your values, principles and fighting spirit. And I'm very glad I did...

So here's to you Paa From your forever grateful daughter!

My Father

Papa, you're like sun to me, a sure thing, always there, beaming light and warmth on my life...

Whatever is good in me today, I owe to your wisdom, your patience, your strength, your love...

You taught me by example, as a role model, how to be my own person, how to believe in myself...

Instructing me without controlling me!

Even when we disagreed, you held us together, so our bond was never broken...

I understand what you did for me and I'm so grateful that I have you as my foundation, My rock!

I respect you! I admire you! I love you! My guiding light... My PAPA!!!

J&K- Once again a political battle field!!!

Now I'm not being Biased but then why is BJP so busy making a fuss about their "Ekta Yatra" being foiled??? I mean don't they have better issues to fight for? Why are they being so publicity hungry? Just wake up and smell the coffee BJP'ians!!! No party can just run and florish and succeed on the basis of such lame stunts!

The whole thing started a few days back on the Jammu airport where Sushma Swaraj and Arun Jaitley were stopped from leaving the airport and entering the province Of Jammu & Kashmir. They were here for their "Ekta Yatra"! But can someone please explain to me that how while just furling The Indian Flag at Lal Chok, Srinagar show Ekta of any sort? It is just another public stunt for me. And if this was such big a deal for BJP then where are the rest of eminent members? Why were the absent in the press conference which was held today in New Delhi? Is this how much "Ekta" BJP has within? And if (at all) it is about showing how united India is and that citizens of J&K are no different and whole of the India supports them then they really need to find better ways of doing it. How about trying to put a stop to all the bhadkau bhashans being delivered everyday and in every little village of Kashmir by the algaovadis? Why don't Sushmaji and Mr. Jaitley work on trying to put a stop to all this? Where do all these noble thoughts of Ekta and everything go when the innocents minds of Kashmiri youth are poisoned against their own motherland?

And come on, let us face facts, Its a free country and every citizen has a right to go anywhere he wants but high profile politicians always manage to attract unnecessary attention. And when ever any politician goes even to the most harmless place on earth they all need security. And if these people go to Kashmir it automatically means more security than ever! There personal security, security to the guest houses, security to there vehicles, security on the roads and it does not require no army or police personnel to figure out how time and man-power consuming this can be! And as far as I can think J&K has better issues to plan,imply and worry about! Employing the forces to take care of this show off is necessary or protecting the LoC and those little villages which can be blasted any moment by some
sarphira terrorist? Now if this is so obvious to me why don't the great politicians of BJP get this simple thing? Or are there minds too corrupt to get it? According to me, Omar Abdullah did no wrong when he denied entry to these esteemed politicians. After all, you like it or not, HE IS THE CM of the state and if anything happens it will just add up to problems he's facing. It's his job to be concerned about the security of the state and life of the citizens which could have been on stake. And if that is something that a CM should be questioned for then please don't blame him for not being able to work for betterment of the state.

I'm not some anti-BJP speaking here. The party was extremely national and even now its doing great work in the states of Madhya Pradesh and Gujrat. Shivraj Singh and Narendra Modi are doing pretty good work and have lifted there respective states to great heights. But then its not about a state or two. Its about the whole nation, there are bigger issues BJP should unite for as being the opposition. Correct me if I'm wrong but the duty of the opposition is to see the short comings of the ruling government which they are not able to see and point it out and ask for them to work on it, and if they don't- agitate and ask for an explanation! But sadly, I do not see anything of this nature happening! All BJP does is this sort of lame press conferences and just getting dirt on UPA government.

Please BJP!!! Please, at least now start thinking about India and working for its betterment. We Indians are facing lot of troubles and we need all the attention of our esteemed politicians. Why isn't Mr. Jaitley fighting for Aarushi who is denied justice and many other such people who suffer injustice everyday? Why isn't Sushma Swaraj working for trying to establish a better health system in country? I think this will really help them to have a stand in the coming elections. Please! Jago Neta! JAGO!!!

Our relationship continues...

It was the New Year morning… The beginning of a new year... a new hope…! It was 1 Jan. ’11.

I was happy as the previous night was gone and it was one night no one would ever like to live… The doctors had given up all hopes and told us that these are Papa’s last 4-6 hours. Being a Doctor myself I knew the consequences, I knew how ugly was all this going to be, I knew that the chances were not more than 2%, but then the Daughter inside me kept me going. And I believed in Papa’s strengths and beliefs more than mine! I was hopeful right from the beginning and I was making everyone believe in my hopes. I knew that a miracle will happen. I knew that Papa will open his eyes and put his hand on my head and smile… may be not soon… but I was still waiting for the miracle. And with all my hopes up I went to the hospital sharp @ 7 am…

After finishing all my routine duties with the nursing staff and with the Doctors done with there round, I was sitting beside papa holding his hand in mine and singing the song “Tujhse naraaz nahi zindagi..” in a very low voice. It was a song that Papa loved to hear from me, so there I was… and then the GNM student- Shashwati walked in… she had been seeing me with Papa all these days. She wished me a Happy New Year and I wished her the same saying “Happy New Year to you, my New Year can only be Happy when Papa regains consciousness!” to this she smiled and said “Aap bahut khayal rakhte ho uncle ka. You sure love him a lot” and I said “Yes… I do…” She went after that to attend the other patients leaving me thinking of all those times when I was this little girl, fighting for her life on so many occasions… and then like a flashback, it all started coming back to me…

There were many nights when my parents rushed out of our home for hospital with me in there arms… struggling for each breath. For all those who were left back home- they could just pray that I would be brought back home alive… And Papa-He never slept even for a minute all those nights as he was busy making sure I’m still breathing. If he ever saw even a minor distress on my face, he would run for the doctor and ask him to do anything that would help me survive. Right from crying to running to the hospital late night even during rains to running back to the city, asking his friend to open the medical store to get medicines for me- he did everything to keep me alive... to see his little princess smiling and shining again…

All that reminded me of all the more reasons I love, respect and cherish my Papa. I got back to reality with entering of the Intern to check Papa’s vitals. That day added to my happiness because Finally on that day Papa’s vitals were stable… right from the time I came to the hospital till I left Papa @ 9 pm. And before leaving, I went close to Papa and whispered into his ears “Papa… You’re doing good today! And when I come back tomorrow morning, I want to see you even better. Remember – I love you a lot and I’ll do anything and everything to make sure you’re all right. We have a lot of plans to make and get them fulfilled and we gotta do all that soon… I love you mere Paapu… My Daddy strongest!” kissed his forehead and left with a smile on my face… and lots of hopes in my heart!

My Papa died that night! Exactly 2 hours later! I wish I could say that he made some miracle recovery… but he didn’t! His heart just stopped pumping! I feel like he was just waiting for me to leave so that he could leave because he never wanted me to see him giving up! And I wish I could tell you that there was some good that came out of it… That through Papa’s death we could all go on living… Only thing was he had lots of blessings from all those people he helped and gave them a reason to live and saved the lives of those farmers who were going to commit suicide… he was the true King of Hearts. But now it’s all over… he’s just gone… a little piece of blue sky now… And we all have to move on…

Life is different now. A lot has changed in the last few days. Maa went back to work with all the emptiness in her heart but still being strong! Bhai went back to Pune and has got into this great MBA course. And even though we’ve all grown from it and moved on, I’ll never understand why Papa had to die and we all got to live!? There’s no reason for it I guess… Death is just Death! Nobody understands it. And once upon a time, I thought I was put on Earth to love and take care of my father, that I am becoming a doctor so that I can always keep him away from sickness. And I couldn’t do it! I realize now that isn’t the point. The point is I had him as my Papa. And he was wonderful-the greatest! One day I’m sure I’ll see him again. But until then… Our relationship continues…